I Realize That I

[Let It Be]

I realize that I'm still pretty upset after having spent the last three days cleaning up the tar off my sidewalk and driveway. There is still a spot that the daughter of my neighbor put kitty litter on but hasn't come back to clean it up.

I also realize that I have discovered something about myself. I realize that I'm not that type of person who could have overlooked it like this daughter has in not contacting me about the damage.

Oh well, now to let my shoulder heal from all this work.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that it is in my best interest that I back off from the neighbor across the street as she has requested.

I realize that I haven't been able to release all the pain caused by my neighbor who lived next door to me because I was always hearing her name and stories about her from this neighbor. She never really "got it" about this neighbor as others did.

I realize that someone was watching over me for this to happen so I can continue my healing journey.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I missed my crazy music from ten years before and that my mind has crazy ideas again while I'm listening to it again.

And that I didn't forget all my Japanese - since I wasn't using it for the last five years. I can still along...:headphone:

 

[Recovery4Me]

I realized that I have more work to do to free myself from my own self imprisonment. This site allows that exploration. I am not 'different' here...I can be me. Recovery may not be a race, but I am lacing up my shoes. Let the path be true and victorious with each new step.

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize that my sister and I do not have to agree on the way to raise our kids.

 

[Nighthawk]

Will never be as well as I want to be.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I realize that I am very exhausted from the stress and worry about selling my house. I have a pretty full day tomorrow and I am not looking forward to it. I choose to take on these projects. I will keep on going forwards anyway.

 

[intothelight]

Don't have to agree to "keep the peace" and am entitled to my own feelings and opinions.

 

[Bookoffee]

I realize that I struggle to accept love from myself and others because I'm scared of it and I struggle with self worth issues. Because in my past what I thought was love ended up being abusive and it hurt me

This hit me the other day when I was sharing a conversation on here.

realize that I am the only one standing in my way of getting better. I'm the one isolating myself. I'm learning to be more aware of it and get out. Not an easy feat. I realize that when it boils down to it, I am the one in control

I believe it is @anthony that brought this to my attention when I avoiding stuff.


I realized last night that I need to learn to forgive myself and it is ok to be me. "The past is rubbish" and I need to embrace and accept who I have become today.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I hate flashbacks. It was bad enough to live through the traumas once. I'm pretty sure I don't need to keep reliving them.

 

[Let It Be]

I realize that it has only been 4 weeks since my neighbor moved but as each day passes my body lets more go. I do wish my other neighbor hadn't told me that her daughter didn't want to sell the house for 6 months in case she wanted to move back here.

I realize that if that happens, I will be making more changes in my life. I cannot begin to feel my body again and go back to what it was like.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am beginning to realize what is my responsibility and what is not.