I Realize That I

[Deleted member 12723]

Even though I am techno challenged, I realize that with practice I will learn more and use what I have learned. I realize that there is nothing wrong with asking for help. I realize that this world has changed everything to computers and there is so much for me to learn. I realize that I will be patient with what I do not know and keep on going and not give up.

 

[Anrish]

I realize that I need to feed my fantasy to be able to keep going. When I retreat and stop my emotions, I might only end up dead. I need to face my anger and my fears in my mind.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

I realize that I wasn't aware of how much my words and behaviors affect the people around me when I fall in the rabbit hole.

I realize that I hurt more than just myself when I stop fighting things.

I realize that I'm not ok with hurting people even inadvertently.

I realize that I need to do things differently.

I realize that I needed to be told how my words and actions were hurting someone very close to me.

I realize that I spend way too much time with my head up my a** obsessively thinking when I could be focusing my attention on more productive ways of dealing with symptoms.

I realize that's easy to say when I'm not as anxious and triggered.

I realize that I have to take responsibility for my words and my actions.

I realize that symptoms are still bothering me because of processing my traumas.

I realize that I've been having a hard time with symptoms because an anniversary is coming.

I realize that I'm working very hard.

 

[joyfulgirl]

I realize that while I've never fully mastered healthy coping skills and often find myself living in the midst of chaos, that perhaps the chaos itself has served as an ongoing distraction. Its as though all of this worry brought on by some of the poor choices I seem to make and the "what-ifs" that consume me are actually keeping me from dealing with the real issues buried deep inside of me. I know I'm an extremely intelligent and self aware person but it seems like I get to a certain point where I'm too afraid to do the work that needs to be done to heal. And then I just shut down.

Chaos and self-destructive behavior are so familiar to me that it almost makes sense that I can't quite relate to healthier options for living my life. I do know that I'm tired of the cycle I'm in. And I have a lot of work to do to free myself. And that itself is so scary! But to have some relief in my mind and to be at peace with myself has to be worth the work. I need to remain faithful to myself for real.

 

[WildMermaid]

I realized that my eating habits and lack of appetite have to do with flashbacks and illness, and both things need to be addressed. I realize that I'm hiding out from life and that makes it much harder to get back in the swim of things.

 

[jaccat]

I realise I need to stop being scared when good things happen.

I realise I am better at accepting compliments. I still get the urge to deflect, to put myself down, but sometimes I can temper it.

I realise when someone compliments me they mean it.

 

[rainy_daze]

I realise I need to be active when dragging myself out of a depression rut. No one else will take care of me/my mental health. The responsibility is my own.

I realise I don't want to reply to threads I'm watching until my head feels in a better space. I don't think I have the articulation right now, which makes me pretty sad.

I realise I have learned so much from reading people on here, and that has been invaluable for my own healing and sanity :laugh: [I am a little sane ;):p].

 

[Recovery4Me]

I realize that I struggle with compassion or valuing someone h3llbent on being mean to feel powerful.

 

[Britt.f7]

I realize I have been spending too much money on myself all in the need to feel better. Of course owing this money doesn't make me happy. I have to stop thinking that there is something out there that will cheer me up. Make me a better person.

 

[The Albatross]

I realize that I rose to the occasion the past couple weeks but almost bit off more than I could chew. Nixed my errands this morning in favor of solitude and a nap. One more shift then a blessed "most of the day off".

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that I need to change tactics to meet this new challenge which sounds doable for me.

 

[Tanishq]

I realize that while I've never fully mastered healthy coping skills

Neither we do, joyfulgirl here you are in fine company with us who are learning with you to master the coping skills.