I think i’m being shunned from my church

[sonicwhite]

I needed to call them for a ride. I called them Wednesday to set up a ride but no call back. Unfortunately I don’t feel comfortable at any other church.

This is depressing. When I decide to want to go I can’t go.

I understand that Christians are the only ppl who kill their own ppl. Idk what to do. I’ve been thru so much in the last ten years. Satan caused me a lot of anxiety thus tearing down my calling. I should of seen it coming. Idk what to do folks.

 

[Ronin]

Call again?

Try other means of transport? Walk?

 

[sonicwhite]

Their thirty minutes away. Can’t walk. Tried to call. Guess I’m going to find a new church.

 

[Justmehere]

I needed to call them for a ride. I called them Wednesday to set up a ride but no call back.

The lack of a phone call back may have more to do with:

Their thirty minutes away.

I'd suggest emailing someone on staff and asking if a regular 30 minute ride to church can be arranged or not. Let them know, you'll accept their answer, whatever it is. I'd also ask them point blank if you are being shunned or if they are simply short on resources to be able to support you the way you really need support. (I'm guessing it's the latter.)

Guess I’m going to find a new church.

Good plan. Don't give up or lose hope. Churches are full of people who make mistakes, which is why you and I can fit in. We all make mistakes too. (Some mistakes are deal breakers and some churches are very unhealthy, but most Christians are ordinary fallible humans.) Try looking for one with a recovery ministry, like Celebrate Recovery. They may be able to walk with you and do life with you a lot better. Try also looking for one within walking/busing distance - then you can go even when other humans fail you.

 

[Gs172003]

They may have been out of the office.

 

[sonicwhite]

I overthink a lot. It’s apart of my anxiety. I’ve always been a worry wart.


I hope they just didn’t have the means for it. I really like this church. Their down to earth and don’t shame you for not being perfect like a lot of other churches do.

I know this guy who said I was wrong about my faith. That I’m not a true Christians and that when I started to claim about Christ I was only in it 50%.

When I got home I started to doubt my own salvation. If Satan could destroy my faith that would be the end of it. But God promises that nothing will ever be able to separate me from the Love of God that is in Christ Jesus.

 

[WishfulThinking123]

Is it a big church? I have found that its easy to feel lost and uncared for and not personal...no deep relationships at the bigger ones. However, I know a lot of people who are happy at the bigger ones. I have started going to an extremely small church and love it, its hard at times because you cant hide...you let people know you on a very personal level but in the end its what I need. Vulnerability is really hard for me and this pushes me to get to know people and people to know me in a very personal way and they all love the Lord. Dont lose hope, there are good churches out there and people who love Christ and would want nothing more than to love and support you! I'll be praying for you today!

 

[digger]

I really like this church. Their down to earth and don’t shame you for not being perfect like a lot of other churches do.

If this has been your experience of the church so far, do you think there might be other explanations for them not having returned your call yet than them shunning you? or, have there been other incidents with this church that have contributed to feeling shunned?

 

[sonicwhite]

When I had the obsessions I asked what was going on with me. My fear was Satan was tempting me before I found out that I was having obsessive thoughts.

Their response was tell satan to get out of your life. I’ve been there since that and they always welcomed me. I think that they are short staffed and since I live so far away it’ maybe not doable.

I want anyone here who thinks I am a predator to look up OCD. Pure O. POCD. I feared I was going to lose control and hurt a child.

I was consumed by guilt that I told the pastor what I was going thru. They were shocked as so was I. Until I looked on google what I was going through I was consumed by a fear that I was a sick person. Then I started to have obsessive thoughts about God’s Judgement and that’s how I knew I had ocd. So there it is folks. They have wanted me to go to church for a long time.

I would always call my friend and she would always suggest that I go to church.

It’s ironic that once I wanted to go I can’t find a ride.

 

[sonicwhite]

I don’t like talking about it because ppls first reaction is he must be a sicko. Not knowing I have suffered my whole Christian life under what I believe was Satan ultimately.

He tried to destroy my witness. I was so on fire for God. So looking forward to winning souls for Christ.

But after I started smoking doubts seemed to seep in.

Than one day it struck and I have suffered ever since.

I know God allows things to happen. I totally depend on God and I know I’m going to heaven. One thing I learned from it all is that God loves me. That I’m a cherished child of God. That Christ saw me thru it all.

When the theme of Gods judgment happened it was even scarier. I couldn’t even leave my bed I was totally disabled. I’m thankful but I wish the Lord would take the thorn of anxiety out. It’s a messenger of Satan and I wished it was gone.

It has given me a great unconditional love for myself and others.

I know we’re struggling in life. Each of us has our own differences. God never took away my mental disorders. Instead He saw me thru it all.

Father I pray that you do not take them out of the world. But Keep them from the evil one.

That’s Jesus’s own words. He knew we would suffer but it’s all worth it when you can see the bigger picture.

 

[EveHarrington]

Do you think people here are judging you? I don’t get that impression at all.

:hug:

 

[sonicwhite]

No I’ve just been judged by a therapist before and ever since then I tread carefully on how I discusse it.