I'm Completely Fine And I'm Completely Not

[orangecat]

Hi all,

Lately I've been experiencing my symptoms in a strange new way and I was wondering if anyone else experiences it like this? Usually when I get anxious it just consumes my whole body. But in therapy about a year ago, I encountered the "voice" of a child that has since made my symptoms almost separate from myself. I can be an anxious wreck, but know it's not *me* that's experiencing the symptoms, it's the child. Sometimes when the child gets very upset I experience it as well but it's almost like I flip flop from having racing thoughts and anxieties to being completely find in the moment. It's very confusing and throws me off quite a lot.

Thanks for reading, and feel free to share any thoughts.

EDIT: The title should be *fine not find - clearly I'm not thinking straight at the moment.

 

[WillyKat]

Have you talked this over with your therapist?

I know that one of the things I've worked on in therapy is to stand apart from the anxiety as if it was like an object that I was able to calmly observe, or maybe like something floating by in a stream below me while I stay safe on the bank.

Something else I've been dealing with is that when I'm an anxious wreck, it's the little boy inside that's experiencing it, but dominating the adult. Maybe in your case the child is experiencing but not dominating the adult?

In any case, seems like good news or at least not bad news. Still, definitely talk it over in therapy.

 

[franciemarnie]

It really helped me when I realized I had child parts inside. I find they are usually quite clear as to how they feel, what they want and don't want, etc. I had to learn to listen. Still working on it!

 

[arfie]

Sounds like what I call, "Detaching." Unlike dissociation, I feel it and acknowledge it, but I am only holding it in my awareness while I continue living my life. It happened. It still hurts but it is not the whole of my life. I think of it a psychic limp.

Hope you find what it is for you, Orangecat. Definitely a good thing to talk over with your therapist.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

EDIT: The title should be *fine not find

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