Childhood Im Obsessed With Age 7

[Jnean]

I lost my innocence when I was 7. Though I was beaten prior to that or at least my body memories tells me so with reliving physical pain on my head. At 7 though something more happened. I used to be happy in pictures although I don't remember those moments much. I started disassociating and going to those happy places when my daddy needed my love. I realized that these memories, nightmares where I can not move or make a sound, and my body memories and sensations all come back to this even though there was much more abuse after I was no longer 7. What am I missing as far as not being able to move past age 7 in my therapy. I suppose I am just not ready to move on but I can't stop thinking there is more or worse as to why I can't move past it yet.

 

[Jnean]

maybe I am just not able to trust that I can get through to the other side of this. I know I am a child of sexual abuse and that was big for me so what's next you know and do I have to go, do I want to, scary stuff.

 

[Bookoffee]

I am going through the same for the past few years. Around the same age but abuse had started years earlier.

I am struggling hard on the same issue.

 

[Friday]

What am I missing as far as not being able to move past age 7 in my therapy. I suppose I am just not ready to move on but I can't stop thinking there is more or worse as to why I can't move past it yet.

Maybe more & worse... Maybe also there's a huge cognitive/emotional leap that happens around age 7 & 8 (similar to, but very different from the cognitive emotional leap that happens during toddler years & teen years), where children become very self aware of themselves in relation to the world around them. In many cultures (&/or religions) there's actually a bit of a ceremony here. Age of wisdom. Age of awareness. Age of accountability. Age of choice & choosing.

So maybe worse trauma... But also maybe at age 7 is when you knew it could be different? That other kids had things different? That your life wasn't "life" but terrible things were being done in your life?

I could be completely wrong, here. Just an idea/thought.

 

[Brenton]

I lost my innocence when I was 7. Though I was beaten prior to that or at least my body memories tells me...

I'm right where you are, same age too. I can't get past it either. Someday, but its not easy.

 

[mary1979]

Yeah I agree with @FridayJones.

7 is a really important age so far as your personal development goes, id say most victims of childhood abuse would get stuck in this age when going back through therapy.

It will a big healing moment when you do get past it though, so you have that to look forward to :)

I dont have a single memory of my life before 7, everything starts for me then, when my younger sister was born.
Even though my abuse was from birth.

 

[Jnean]

Mary, I believe that I was abused as an infant because of my memories and my EMDR therapy and I remember very little of my childhood. Thanks for sharing.