In this moment where would you rather be?

[Brumbyinthesunshine]

I'm not active about this desire. I eat drink water take care of myself ask for help when things are too much to handle. It's just a fantasy. Lately I'm feeling better but with this improvment the need to feel worse is forcing me to read terrible true or fiction stories to keep me in a state of distress. I don't remember not being in a state of distress and while I work toward recovery I simply can't imagine not suffering a lot every second of my life. It's too strange to me. But that familiarity isn't pleasable.
So many people died around me than I regret I survived when my own life was actually in danger when I was 4.
Death sounds like a relief to me because of that

@Friday thank you for your kind words and connecting with @Givrali .
@Givrali I am sorry to hear you feel this way - I think this thread is to be a respectful escape for all. I for one dream of being in places Ive never been.
Please remain in contact with the PRO'S on this forum. They will talk you through step by step.

I just want to say - Life is cruel. The idea of exiting the world perhaps has crossed the mind of many PTSD sufferers here and others.
There is no guilt in being alive - today is a chance for you to do one thing - ANYTHING - to make life meaningful- pot a plant -place a seed in a pot YOU ARE GROWING It - even if it means the sun just came out just for you today - or a cloud made a certain pattern just for you. Your presence on earth is NOT an accident.
If your life was in danger at four - how many years has it been? look how far you got.I know life enough to know it is not a fairytale and the mindf*ck it creates with people and circumstance is unmerciful and social media deceives us into believing we need to live the lies they show us as truth.

Stay strong . I hope better days will come for you . Where would you rather be NOW ? Anywhere -in this world?

 

[Brumbyinthesunshine]

In a world without slave labour, sipping a cuppa tea.

 

[Strawberryg]

In front of a camp fire on a beach

 

[Brumbyinthesunshine]

Under the Milky Way.

 

[Defaultxlove]

At a beach house for a couple weeks

 

[Brumbyinthesunshine]

I'm not active about this desire. I eat drink water take care of myself ask for help when things are too much to handle. It's just a fantasy. Lately I'm feeling better but with this improvment the need to feel worse is forcing me to read terrible true or fiction stories to keep me in a state of distress. I don't remember not being in a state of distress and while I work toward recovery I simply can't imagine not suffering a lot every second of my life. It's too strange to me. But that familiarity isn't pleasable.
So many people died around me than I regret I survived when my own life was actuallyay in danger when I was 4.
Death sounds like a relief

Its ok not to be okay- for a while.

Forum fam - Looks like we are all going to da beach ! LOL

I would be where I can hear the waves.

This is good @Defaultxlove please -bring a pic-a-nic!

I am currently(in my head) seated by the camp fire @Strawberryg made at the beach house @Defaultxlove owns.

Its ok not to be okay- for a while.

Respectfully- @Givrali .This line was a separate post - which mysteriously merged with all my other posts just now.
We would love to hear you are doing okay.

Forum fam - Looks like we are all going to da beach ! LOL

I would be where I can hear the waves.

This is good @Defaultxlove please -bring a pic-a-nic!

I am currently(in my head) seated by the camp fire @Strawberryg made at the beach house @Defaultxlove owns.

Hmmmmph- any idea why multiple posts merge to one ?

 

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Thanks @Friday - I just got carried away in my almond shaped structure that lies at the temporal lobe beneath the uncus - A.K.A amygdala -About run away thoughts of the beach - escapism perhaps?

 

[Givrali]

As I said I reach for help when needed and I'm not active about that fantasy. Sorry if my comments were misplaced. It's harder to understand the topics of a conversation when it's not your first langage

I wish I was in a place where thelepaths exist and so can do part of my mental therapy for me because psy therapy is long and exhausting

 

[Teasel]

In a private swimming pool

 

[Brumbyinthesunshine]

In a garden among the soft and happy trees in the movie Lorax

( I know,I know , it's non-existent- but thats the beauty of this thread :-)

 

[BuildingSelf24]

On a beach under an umbrella for shade.