Sufferer intothelight (update)

[Charminghorse]

Met 1st by her beloved Newfs I am sure.

Coincidently, Maddie, her silver newfie, had to be pts a few hours before do to a Osteosarcoma on her front leg. They go in peace together.

 

[Tinyflame]

To shepherd her into the light

Yes @Rose White I have had more near-death or post-death experiences that have involved my pups than people. Thank you @Charminghorse for saying, I know such losses broke her heart but she didn't know they would be short-lived. One thing we can't be is afraid when our animals are there. And, well you know, they are family. She will be greatly missed.

PS @Charminghorse I keep wondering if I should say this, I hope this isn't wrong to say, especially in your own grief, and please just disregard if so. I am going to try to have courage and just blurt it out. If you are reading your mom's diary, remember to think of context, or think of it as your own. Your mom always was honest and blunt, but also us here, we speak out because the anonymity allows us to vent, to not fear hurting feelings or censor, to not worry about what anyone thinks. Even if we think the opposite of what we wrote later! (As with any diary, think Bridgette Jones Diary! lol. But also why 'sufferers' have to equally be very respectful posting in the 'Supporters' section- they have their right to say how they are feeling and thinking). A big use is a lot of processing and refining ~out loud, and trying to get a clear head/ face ourselves and even exposure therapy to say stuff 'out loud' we rarely if ever do. To kick ourselves in the butt, or get support and guidance, or just be sad and honest in peace, not the invincible people we are trying to pretend to be. Not saying this because of anything I read from her diary that wasn't loving, but I know in grief I've clung to every word. And if my life and heart and thoughts were based only on what I wrote here, it wouldn't be accurate and especially leave out many good thoughts. She loved you all with all her heart. Full stop. And in other ways it is amazing to read how so very much she loved you and how hard she fought. A great gift. I too will go back to read her words of guidance and support to me.

Virtual hugs to you.

 

[Rose White]

In honor of @intothelight and dedicated to @Charminghorse , plus all of their family and those who were touched by intothelight

 

[ms spock]

I had been thinking of intothelight for three months most days.

I came on and was so sad to see that she had passed.

I am so sorry to have missed her passing.

I send my best wishes to all her family, in case one comes back to read this one day. She really had an impact. I still think of things that she has said to me.

 

[StarChild]

I send my best wishes to all her family, in case one comes back to read this one day.

Yes, @ms spock, I do hope for the same. And, oh boy, did Intothelight have an impact on so many lives! I to was heartbroken, to watch her fight such a merciless, grueling illness. So I to do offer my deep and heartfelt condolences to her whole family @Charminghorse.

- But in light of her deep faith in the Bible, and Jesus Christ, of which she wrote as a matter of course, I to believe with all my heart, that she's now alive, and is finally free of all illness, pain and sorrow and that she's in the presence of the ONE who comforted the ones who believe in him:
"These things I have spoken to you so that in ME you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world."
John 16:33 (New American Standard Bible)
Jesus said to her: "I am the resurrection and the life; the one who believes in ME will live, even if he dies,"
John 11: 25 (New American Standard Bible)

 

[Justmehere]

She was one of the best. I lost a parent too in the past season of life. Best wishes to you.

 

[ms spock]

She was one of the best. I lost a parent too in the past season of life. Best wishes to you.

Deb was one of the best. I have quotes in my mind from her. I am sorry for your loss of a parent @Justmehere.

 

[ms spock]

Yes, @ms spock, I do hope for the same. And, oh boy, did Intothelight have an impact on so many lives! I to was heartbroken, to watch her fight such a merciless, grueling illness. So I to do offer my deep and heartfelt condolences to her whole family @Charminghorse.

Me too @StarChild! I do agree Deb had a real impact on so many lives! I was sad that I missed saying goodbye, but the whole forum did a brilliant job of it. I was proud of everyone.

And @Charminghorse was so incredibly generous to relay Deb's process towards the end. That is tremendously kind. I could catch up on the family photos, so to speak. I got to read folks and I felt so touched.