Hi,
I've been doing EMDR for 6 months now and I am flabbergasted by the ammount of yucky stuff that I've repressed during almost 4 decades...
Flashbacks, nightmares, freezing, flighting, fighting and the one I dislike the most... fawning.
When I go to sleep I get these shocks in my body as if I get an electrical shock. Usually on my chest.
I wanted to stop because of all the molesting and getting raped image and bodily feelings I experience since doing EMDR about abuse in every form.
While it is f*cking hard and exhausting, I am continuing with EMDR, because with the horrible flashbacks and 'the body keeps score' memories, also good memories are coming back.
Recently I get tears in my eyes on a daily basis and this is a good thing.
I am embracing my healing Journey and I am confident that I will learn to live with my CPTSD and PTSD.
I wish you all the best.