Which is what healing is all about. The important part here is to remember that you were victimized. What I also see in this is that you protected yourself by refusing to be in the same room with him. You also cut off all communication with him. These are all things done out of self care and self love. Many victims of such things take a lifetime before they get to that point. Keep up the great work but don't be hard on yourself.But in fact I'm facing things about me the further this thread is going.