How Did You Sleep Last Night?

[Lionheart]

I slept deeply and well

 

[Plat-Daddy]

I keep shooting people in the head in my nightmares. I kind of recognize them but I can't name them. I...

probably the friend or foe thing in an instant like to protect your brothers or go to prison decisions in an instant. This fear of losing brothers or losing family from there and at home all can change with one squeeze is very hard to turn off. This bothered more these days I think than the event itself. This pressure of do or die or do and jail haunts many of us for years. Now I am all good. live away from people. so not like public. and fight or flight is the latest lesser mental stress after getting better about the possibility of mistakes. The ones when I was right do not haunt me. The ones I never knew did for while and after 16 years retired the ones I that may have been wrong have never come back. They spent allot of money teaching us to turn it on yet did not spend a dime teaching how and when to turn it off. I think I have it easier than most for I have been the mean looking, sounding, smack a jerk biker for life so was ok to be an ass towards others when got home for that is who i was when before I left. I wish you smoother nights for sure. I beat the crap out of a body bag until weak tired and this curves the hell of of the dreams. the mind is tired when the body is exhausted.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Slept like crap

 

[Just-yep]

probably the friend or foe thing in an instant like to protect your brothers or go to prison decisio...

I was military, and I did lose a number of buddies. I don't think the dreams are about that. The men I shoot, I think from when I was around ten or twelve and my father would rent me to people. I also bounced from one bad foster home to the next, then back to one of my parents. The dreams just catch me of guard I guess. Seeing people and places that are but aren't familiar bothers me... The lack of control bothers me. You're lucky you've found something that helps, I have a soon to be one year old and finding time for me is impossible. Let alone having to fake it till I make it in the I'm ok and stable department. I can't even say anything to my husband, he just tells me to stop dwelling and get over it. Ehh I sound like I'm whining, just another day in paradise

 

[Plat-Daddy]

I was military, and I did lose a number of buddies. I don't think the dreams are about that. The men I...

I understand. Sorry the husband doesn't really get it. yet most do not. It is not dwelling for we cannot tell the mind what is approved thinking. The new son will take allot of time so this may help keeping the mind busy. Busy mind with todays life can help the mind not have to much time for yesterdays. That is cool on the little one. They are the reason we do what we do and did for sure. He is a great reward for your service. way cool. I find not telling others who have not been there for me is better. Most just cannot understand the depth of it all and there for just think we are a little weak minded. If they lived it they would understand. I just tell others I have allot on my mind right now that I working through so if I seem quiet for a bit this is why. All here today is good just processing and filing some stuff in an effort to put it away. I wish you smoother days ahead and look into the new ones eyes allot for there is comfort in there for sure.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

The chronic pain in my back kicked up a few notches last night. It was bad enough that I couldn't fall asleep until 5am. I was in that limbo sleep where you know you're sleeping. Every time I moved I'd wake up from searing pain. I must have fallen into a deeper sleep at one point though because, I woke up at 8am and found I'd had night sweats again. That's twice this week. I'm hoping this pain in my back eases up. I'm going to need a nap today.

 

[Ronin]

I didn't, but caught up with some two hours later the day. With nightmares but they weren't too bad.

 

[Glo809]

Greetings

Made my transition into working all night mode without any issues.
Right now is a different story, details on another post.

G

 

[Ronin]

For three hours and rather peacefully. Goal still being six minimum.

 

[NatBird]

I slept really well last night. 9 hours.

Going to bed in the next hour. I love autumn:)

 

[Plat-Daddy]

I am older than dirt as my daughter says. Cold war era you could say. I finally just had to make some major life changes to get more sleep. It has helped more than anything else. I got tired of telling people I am not the solution to their problems and them not mine. Moving to the country so remote I do not see anyone unless I go to the small town. This has helped me so much. I did go to a movie theater to see if I could do it. I stayed but was so on guard I will never again. I look for things to do with my family that is away from others. I just have zero patience for rude people now and it is very hard not to swat them down for having zero manors. No tv now in 7 years. I pick what I want to watch on u tube and netflix. We home school our kid so zero outside bs influences. A well rounded education as in skills, trades and academics. He to teach how to be the chameleon these days. Smart but able to blend when needed and the ability t lead when needed.
I have learned to educate the people who trigger me with polite this behavior bothers me and if continued I will remove myself from your life. Be this way but have enough respect to not be this way around me or see ya. I though would be lonley but was wrong. The more bs people I do not have time for the more non bs people I seem to meet. Stupid are breeding stupid and gaining on us. yet is seems I have better odds of controlling my life in the country. We even got a couple of small places with hook ups now and live in a very large RV. If I get the urge to move we do not even have to pack. Just go to the other place for a while. No body knows when we are where. The lots were like 5000 each on lakes. we paid on them for a while but now have two semi hidden places on lakes where most are never home except on holidays. vacation spots for others. it is nice to not know anyone. No phone calls, No people bothering us. Nobody wanting help fixing crap. I am learning to fish. Ok nap on an old barge. fishing for zzzzss I guess. But these changes have saved me from my own mind. I am turned on when need to be but most of the time now I can turn it off or at least way down and relax some. everything that stresses you must go. You are the king of your world all others beside wife and kids are visitors in it from time to time.

 

[Muttly]

I had signed off for the night and realized that I didn't want to go to sleep because of the nightmares and came here and discovered this thread. I hadn't seen it before. I am so freaking tired. I may try to sleep on the couch, with lights on and music on.