Sexual Assault Orgasm during coerced rape

[Jill2002]

Hi...my names Jill and this is my 1st time posting. I'm 16 and met this man recently. It turned out he is 30 years old but when I met him I thought he was 25 or 26. I thought he was handsome and charming.

We went out on a date and he took me back to his place which was unexpected. He became very aggressive when we were alone. He asked me to play with a vibrator in front of him. At first I said no but then he just got in my face and started yelling at me and I got very scared of him. I knew he was bigger and stronger and could hurt me.

I did what he said and after that he raped me. But while he was having sex with me I orgasmed multiple times. Now I'm confused that a part of me wanted it and to make it more confusing it seems like I'm attracted to him even more than before.

Any advice

 

[Deleted member 37474]

Hi...my names Jill and this is my 1st time posting. I'm 16 and met this man recently. It turned out he is 30 years ol...

Do you have ptsd?

There are resources on the first post that is listed here.

 

[BoN-bOn]

You are underage. It was wrong. It doesn’t matter if YOu seduced him, it is WRONG. Your body reacts the way that it supposed to in that situation. IT’s NOT your fault. It’s not you’re guilt. It isn’t your shame to carry.

 

[EveHarrington]

Seek counseling.

 

[Missycat]

What happened to you was wrong and not your fault. You cannot control what your body did and how it reacted .. that is a physiological reaction/response.
Seek therapy /counselling to help you deal with this.

 

[Deleted member 487]

Rape is rape, no matter what size shape or color they give it. It's awful and very wrong. I am sorry he did that to you.
However, what is the role of PTSD in this?