How Did You Sleep Last Night?

[OKRADLAK]

The other night I took, about 7 herbal remedies to start. They seemed to wake me up. Then I added 2 Benedryl and I swear my brain was laughing at me. WIDE AWAKE.

So I got pissed and I went out to the drug store and got some Nyquil and swigged a very large dose.

My brain went into a fit. It was screaming "NOOOOOO!!"

I could feel it like a demon in there screaming and pushing up against my skull. It was refusing and it was alive and not even a part of me.

I laughed at the little b*stard and said, "You b*stard. Tonight you are so going down." And we actually had a dialogue.

It was horrible. The next day I was all stoned and walking weird. I could have cared less. I was ready to take so many pills and hear it scream for the last time, NOT as in sucide, but as in "You Will Never Torture Me Again!!"

Since then I got some other remedies and now I get up very early, like 2am which means I have to go to bed around 6pm. It's struggle to get to bed, struggle through work half asleep and rush home to eat and sleep if I can.

So much for a life.

 

[Sandra]

I got up 3 times to use the bathroom. I don't remember my dreams last night.

 

[Marie E.]

I didn't go to sleep till about 5am or so, when the sun rise was coming. Sometimes when I'm alone and feel scared, this sort of thing happens. I feel safer in the light. I'm a mess lately. Can't remember the dream that triggered me this morning.

 

[Ricanoland]

My girlfriend woke me up twice telling me that I was grinding my teeth so hard it was waking her up, I didnt remember my dreams. My jaws hurt, but I slept..I guess lol.

 

[alleycat]

Slept okay (6-7ish hours) but got kind of "stuck" in bed for another few hours on a day where I really needed as much time and focus as I could get to actually get what I needed to do accomplished...:/

 

[scaldedsheep]

Really horrible. I keep having weird, realistic dreams that I don't remember what they are when I wake up. I just know that they're so vivid they wake me up out of dead sleep then the rest of the night sucks. It's great.

 

[shadowchaser]

Four hours. Big deal for me as of late. Going for Five hours tonight!

 

[Marie E.]

Another toss and turn night of sleep for me as I miss my new b/f :( I only have to wait for next week. (I will say that much)

I really don't want to go to sleep. Last night I went to bed at dawn actually, don't like being all alone and frightened by the thought of my recent ex. I hate admitting to being afraid of the dark. I don't want the older memories to come back especially. I will try to concentrate on something else.

 

[Misty Eyes]

I have not dreamt in years, and thought I was just not reaching REM. I just finished a sleep study, as my husband told me I continually stop breathing during the night. He works on a boat, so he is gone a lot. The sleep study came back normal, and I know what is going on, just didn't want to face it. I am reliving the past again, and I get so scared. A previous therapist told me that not remembering is my mind protecting me, and when I start remembering, it would be a sign I was healing. I want to heal and move on. So, at least when you are dreaming, you are facing your fears, and you can work on empowering yourself this time. Maybe that can be a comfort to you.

 

[goingonhope]

I slept 10.5 hrs. last night straight out. It was Awesome. :inlove: My eyes were getting sleepy at 9ish. :inlove: Climbed into bed and within minutes fell comfortably off to sleep at 9:15 pm. :) Woke 10.5 hrs. later and very well rested. ;)

Sleeping like this for the first time in so, so long. I am in love with such a process of getting sleepy eyed, responding with climbing into bed, peacefully falling asleep within minutes and then waking just as peacefully. :tup:

 

[Ricanoland]

I went to bed with a major migraine and I woke up with it. I took a Tylenol 3 to knock me out, and I woke up alot because of my dreams, or the dogs (damn fur balls). Rough week, but I'll keep pushing!

 

[Marie E.]

I'm actually sleepy, so I am going to hit the sack way before dawn comes, that way I will get a good nights sleep for once since I have been dealing with enough drama in my life than needed.