Up until a few days ago, for about one or two weeks, I slept very well to what my sleep is usally like. Then I got the news of my friend's cancer having returned and my colleague S. approached me more and here I go again: Go to sleep late, wake up from stomach ache and chaos of feelings very early, sometimes during the night and do not move much if at all during the night. Wake up with pain and seem to have taken on fetal position during the night and tensed severly in my sleep. My neurodermatitis has gotten worse, I can hardly take anything else with regard to emotional challenges, and an emotional challenge right now is allowing myself to feel anything that has to do with particularly bad and good stuff happening. I woke up again this morning after little and bad sleep, feeling confused, sad and helpless.