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How Did You Sleep Last Night?

Last night I woke up in the middle of the night like I often do with an overwhelming feeling of terror and fear, sweating, gasping for breath, but no memory of the nightmare, just the emotions.

After trying to do my 'safe place' visualisation and breathing, I calmed down and tried to go back to sleep.

Dozed on and off for another few hours before getting up with my very noisy and active young sons, who I adore, but sometimes can't help wishing were not so noisy and on the go from the second they wake up!
 
I slept beautifully last night and had the most wonderful vivid dream.

In the dream I bumped into the love of my life. I was so pleased to see him, he kissed me and asked where I had been all this time. Can't remember my answer, though I held him close and could feel the warmth of his body and the familiar smell of his skin. It was so wonderfully real, until I woke up.

I loved him so much, but I couldn't break the rules back then. He died five years ago quite suddenly and I never had the chance to say goodbye.
 
Once I went to bed two thirty in the morning, I slept very good. I slept in again. I am beginning to love this sleeping in. I am such a light sleeper I wake up so early. This has been very nice. I feel very rested.
 
Slept ok, I suppose, but the dreams are kind of haunting me...

I dreamt that I was talking to my paternal grandmother (deceased) and explaining to her my reasons for wanting to become a fireman. She seemed very pleased. It was nice to have a conversation again, after so long.

Then I had a dream about a bunch of 'private defence contractors' who had carried out some highly dubious dirty work and were now being whacked while still in-country by their superiors to try and cover it all up. I was trying to figure out who was behind it and I seemed to be working for a government organisation whose uniform I didn't recognise.

It ended with me trying to protect my wife and some other people (who I don't even know in real life) during a fairly intense firefight at a remote cottage. There was a helicopter and everything.

All terribly action packed, eh?

This is probably something to do with a conversation I had with my wife the previous night regarding an offer of employment from one of those companies. I'm really not a fan of them and, as much as I'd love to get back in the thick of it, I wouldn't do it that way, even though the money could buy us that little farm we've always wanted.
 

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