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I only woke up once last night for an hour but manged to get 6 hours of sleep, an hour or two more than usual. I woke up to a very vivid nightmare that I hope I never have to repeat.
I have had some nightmares like this even about places I've never been to and people I've not to my knowledge ever met! I hate them too. But I do wonder, if I've never been there, never met the person, how does my mind conjure up such things and people!
It's 1:30 am, I went to bed at !0:30 pm. I quess that's what a nights sleep has become for me. I find it so frustrating not sleeping, as I find it harder to cope daily. I'm having a hard time lately. Cried about my assault it for the very first time a week ago. It happened 16 months, three days, 6 hours and 25 mintes ago.
It is 3:38 AM and I have been awake since midnight or so. I went to bed at 8PM, so.... I really would like to get more than 4 hours of sleep, but if this is it, I shall try to take a nap later on in the day. I have tried on and off since midnight to get back to sleep, nothing has worked.
To my knowledge nothing like a noise, etc. woke me, no nightmares, nothing that I can discern. DANGIT!
I had a lovely day yesterday, so why when I went to bed were the nightmares so awful and my mind worrying.
For once the dreams weren't of me being trapped, but of my H leaving me for someone else. Again it was so real I can even see HER or the SLUT as I referred to her.
Then a work worry. I was sure I had missed giving a driver the key and list for a bingo journey and believe me, old people can be dangerous if deprived of their bingo.
Slept better last night than the night before. Woke up really early (like 5am) feeling shaky and odd, but I can't remember the dream which is a blessing. Dozed off again and was nearly late for college, but I'm feeling more rested than I have all week.
Did some heavy duty journaling before I went to bed. I slept good but had bad dreams. Luckily I do not remember them and I do not have the feelings of them either. I should not journal before I go to bed. And I need to go to bed earlier. I really do.
I woke up off and on all night. I had one long dream in the process that seemed to kind of pick up where it left off every time. Tonight I'm struggling and I'm worried I might have nightmares because of it. I should try to go to sleep earlier but, I might end up awake until very late. Again.