Pisssed off that birthday 'gift' end up watered down, 9/10 drunk bottle of wine, filled with tap water and broken seal, supposedly I wouldn't notice? Visions of parents/ grade 7/8. Just enough to be angry, not sh*t-faced.
Thinking of the "3 C''s" of AlAnon, and everything is about 'them'. Following harrowing night. And how it leads to living in constant perpetual crisis. Which is familiar, but not healthy. Where their blood pressure rises, mine drops, both dangerously so. Broken hearts all around.
Had 2, or 2.5, kind people in my life. Didn't try to destroy me or my self-worth. Quite the difference.
No place for me, even borne out in how things are organized/ designed. Now or the future. Tired of the effort, thankful I can say so honestly.
Perhaps am all/ negative I'm told I am, or worth-less I'm shown I am?
I never chose this life, or chose to be where I am. Does it matter? Probably to no one but me. I suppose it doesn't matter at all.
Thankful here can be honest. Relief.
Unrelated, I despise contemporary dance, love every other kind. (My apologies to contemporary dancers). Barefoot should be in living room or on the beach. Interpretative dance turns me so off.. Remind me of 2 people who followed after I said I danced, -perhaps coincidence? Not the same though- yuck. Just speaking for me. Don't understand why people copy. And if facsimile is enough for others, please have it.
Thinking of the "3 C''s" of AlAnon, and everything is about 'them'. Following harrowing night. And how it leads to living in constant perpetual crisis. Which is familiar, but not healthy. Where their blood pressure rises, mine drops, both dangerously so. Broken hearts all around.
Had 2, or 2.5, kind people in my life. Didn't try to destroy me or my self-worth. Quite the difference.
No place for me, even borne out in how things are organized/ designed. Now or the future. Tired of the effort, thankful I can say so honestly.
Perhaps am all/ negative I'm told I am, or worth-less I'm shown I am?
I never chose this life, or chose to be where I am. Does it matter? Probably to no one but me. I suppose it doesn't matter at all.
Thankful here can be honest. Relief.
Unrelated, I despise contemporary dance, love every other kind. (My apologies to contemporary dancers). Barefoot should be in living room or on the beach. Interpretative dance turns me so off.. Remind me of 2 people who followed after I said I danced, -perhaps coincidence? Not the same though- yuck. Just speaking for me. Don't understand why people copy. And if facsimile is enough for others, please have it.
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