I Realize That I

[Dynamic]

Im wasting my own time. interesting since thats a huge pet peeve - when others waste my time

 

[8888]

I realize that I need to be kinder to myself.

 

[Shaylee]

I realized that I am absolutely clueless about ‘self’ stuff.

 

[Shaylee]

I realized today I was always a good cat owner before I became allergic. I haven’t had one single, tiny, bit of doubt about being a good cat owner again if I can.

I think that is the first time I have ever not had an inkling of doubt about… anything ever…

 

[Teasel]

Am beginning to forgive myself for being different.

 

[Tinyflame]

In no particular order, I realize a relative and I who used to be close had some disagreements, that is normal of course. But what wasn't there that is now for a long time is something I never did: fear her.

I am going through the motions, and losing what little resolve I had to pick up the pieces. There likely is no solution and what I could do for my own recovery no longer exists. And there are no replacements I can find. I feel like I'm just sliding off the mountain.

People seem eager to go out; why Idk as I feel gross. And feel I look as gross as I feel, too.

I realize I don't like people who seem to have obvious ulterior motives. I also dislike people who copy what I say, wear, how I (have to) wear my hair, or how I present, etc. A) I don't see why? B) Why would they want to? (Though sometimes I can at least guess) and C) It has always realllllly creeped me out. And D) What am I supposed to do or how do I respond to that? There is even one at work letting on she has my name? (!)

I guess I realize I myself and much of everything and anything feels hopeless. I feel without energy and restless and like a silent train off the rails. And itchy!

 

[Ocean147]

I realize that I need to take better care of myself and talk to myself in a more loving way. And it's important for me to give me multiple opportunities to be creative. I also realize I've been in denial about my symptoms and I should talk more openly about this with my therapist.

 

[Tinyflame]

I have no idea why I even thought of it, but I was thinking how suicide is correlated to not enough resources to be able to cope, but I think it also involves feeling no self worth, which I never have heard mentioned. And which of course also could include shame and guilt, but even those are predicated on having no worth other than thoughts of why the guilt or shame are justified. JMHO anyway.

 

[Rose White]

I realize that I no longer assume that someone doesn’t like me anymore or is mad at me when they don’t respond. That’s still one of the possibilities that emerge but it’s not the dominant one and not the one that I tend to settle on.

 

[LunaticOnTheFritz]

I realize that I have a lot of issues and a lot of healing that needs to be done.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

I realize that just because someone helped you financially and was kind for a while does not give them the right to treat you horribly and call you names when they are angry.

I realize that I'm flawed as well but I still deserve better.

 

[LunaticOnTheFritz]

Using words.... *sigh*

Yes you do deserve better. Sorry you are going through this.