Sorry to hear that.
So, you might want to look into medication. And if your therapist isn't helping you, start looking for a new one.I can’t stop thinking about it. I can’t stop the thought. I try to process it, sort it out, move on, and everything. No one can help me.
I’m so scared. It’s not going to work. No one understands the amount of things and people I have lost. I can’t stand this! I hate my life! I can’t change it. I can’t take back everything I had. I can’t do it anymore. Everything has fallen apart. Absolutely fallen apart
...if you had to guess (on average), how much of an average day (for you) is spent with these thoughts in the foreground? The background? Do they ever fade away for any period of time?The constant fear of another boring day. The fear of knowing nothing will get better. The constant rejection. Knowing I can’t get better, do better, or get what I want. Everything is a mess. Everything. My mind is just completely messed up right now with everything. I don’t know who I am other than a piece of shit that isn’t good enough be that is what the world is telling me. This whole decision made that for me. Black and white...no moving forward. Ever. No relationship, no love. No better job. No being good enough for anyone. Always being alone.
I am on medication. I have tried all kinds. I do not sleep well, I spend most of my day in fear, but it really depends. I wake up in fear and have severe anxiety attacks. It’s all because my life will never be the same. What I thought was real isn’t, and my life is just boring. I can’t survive by myself, meet new people and things are not getting better. I bathe. It’s just all of this court stuff that has made things worse. And knowing that people cannot be trusted and that I cannot obtain any of my goals. People do not remember what they say or do, and it really pisses me off. My life has been so affected by anxiety and fear.So, you might want to look into medication. And if your therapist isn't helping you, start looking for a new one.
It's hard to tell from your posts how much of what you're dealing with is PTSD-related...but, I also know we are only seeing one slice of your life, in here.
Thoughts like these...
...if you had to guess (on average), how much of an average day (for you) is spent with these thoughts in the foreground? The background? Do they ever fade away for any period of time?
I'm also wondering how you're doing with managing the day-to-day stuff....like, how is you ability to eat? Get up in the morning? Wash yourself, brush your hair and teeth...
How are you sleeping?
Yes. I have tried mood stabilizers and antipsychotics. No help. Even tried ketamine which definitely did not help with the anxiety. I honestly think it is a combination of being lied to, set up, and knowing my life is going down the drain and not being able to stop it. I was in such a good place. I’m sorry. I actually feel ok right now, thoughIt's really possible that you're not being treated for the right thing(s). You could also have the wrong diagnosis.
Have you ever given that any thought? That your symptoms might not be entirely PTSD-related?
Life isn't fair. Sorry, but it needs to be said. You were tricked and lied to. That is hard, sure - but "can't get over that"?I was arrested. I can’t get over that. I was charged with domestic violence, I can’t get over that. He apologized to me then took it back. This is not fair.
That's correct. No one can help you if you aren't willing to work on it. You need to be willing to try.No one can help me.
No. You feel crap. The world is not "making you" feel that. Do you have a therapist?the world makes me feel like such a worthless piece of crap. ?