First, I have to say that the first hard thing I did today was go to my first appointment with my new doctor. I was a terrified bundles of nerves this morning with that and the appointment with my husband coming this afternoon. So the appointment with my doctor went so well! Amazingly well. She was patient as I sat in silence because I was too anxious to speak and I even cried, which I don't often do. She even walked me out to the checkout desk because I had a question I knew I couldn't ask.
As for the appointment with my husband and therapist, I guess it went well. I was super anxious, I switched parts at least once. I wrote a few answers as that part allowed and had to have my therapist read them. That felt incredibly weird. My husband found it helpful. It was nice to hear him say that she mainly told him things I had already told him, but that this helped to have it sink in more. It was nice to hear my therapist's message to him be that he should support me with love and trust me to know what I need. For example, my husband sometimes thinks that I take too many naps or too much time alone. My therapist assured him that I would never take advantage of him (because if I am napping, he's taking care of the kids) because I feel too guilty every time I do. So that helped, I think.
I am still very, very self-conscious about the whole thing because I just let him into my private safety world. It was just weird, but I don't regret doing it.
