instead of all the crap my body thinks is stellar to toss out as bad items.
Brain says no, body says yes. Yes to water, in a big way. Is there negotiating that can be done here to turn this problem around, since it's getting worse?
Maybe a particular part is totally okay with drinking water?
I'm waaaay on the other side of this. I drink bucketloads a day, and if you live somewhere hot like I do, ice cubes and fruit don't cut it. They just don't. A few days on proper hydration
feels good. There's so many parts of your body that appreciate it, function better because of it.
I water my plants and for some of them, no additional fertiliser is required. You watch yourself pouring litres of this pure, clear liquid on those plants and they thrive and throw out beautiful flowers. All because of this nectar of life.
I carry a water bottle with me everywhere. I sip. Sometimes I guzzle, but mostly its a slow and steady sipping, throughout the day. When I tip the bottle upside down there's this gulping sound as the water flops down to the other end of the bottle (how trippy is gravity!?). My lips are instantly softer - weird, yet cool! And I like my new purple water bottle, because the opening suits me and my teeth phobia better, but the hot pink that was my last bottle was a much more gratifying colour...
So many things for brain to wonder about and notice other than the drinking of it, if sitting there confronted with a glass of water is the issue. Our guts just looooove water - almost as much as my cordylines and peace lilys.
Sorry, maybe that was totally the opposite of what you need. But I'm thinking that indulging Mind as it runs away with stress about this, is self-sabotaging. Body matters just as much as Mind does. In fact, Mind is pretty dependent on Body getting its essentials. Body matters too, ya know?
ETA Managing my grey carpet trigger on an ongoing basis? A lot of that is mind-work. Taking back control of the irrational places my mind goes when it's been triggered by the carpet. Because the carpet is perfectly innocent. And water is a truly loving, nurturing friend. It's okay to remind Brain that we're safe, and we're thirsty, so we're gonna drink.