Cannot cry in therapy...or at all really

[Deleted member 42665]

I relate. I have been taught my whole life that it is NOT ok to cry in front of people, and if you cry alone, make it snappy. I am going through a tough time and one of my sessions I started to tear up, wiped away some tears and looked away but that's it. I feel like there is a breakdown within me but I can't seem to let it out, even though I feel safe there. It is very frustrating :(

 

[Imnobodywhoareyou]

I relate. I have been taught my whole life that it is NOT ok to cry in front of people, and if you c...

This is it exactly!

 

[RoadtoHappy]

I find I cannot cry at all. I feel it building up inside me, I hope for the tears but nothing. Just pressure and and a feeling I could explode or my chest is heavy. My T and I have been doing heavy processing and CBT but still nothing and I was feeling there was something wrong with me. I wasnt raised to suppress my emotions and don't have a lot of childhood trauma, parents divorced at 5 and I was molested around same time by a neighbor but that its. My trauma was at 14 when I was R***d by a 50 yr old man/stranger. This is what we work on in therapy, 6 months with this T and still not a tear. And I want to so bad, I feel it will just release all the emotions that are trapped inside me. Instead of crying I have panic attacks and cant breath or I vomit from emotions and fear. Anyway I wish you the best. All we can do is keep going and hope we overcome, however that may be.

I hope you are not too busy with your babyies. Congrats and I wish you all the best.

 

[Stephernovas]

I physically tried to make myself cry once. She was like, "I'll cry with you!" I couldn't do it. But then I let my thoughts go to my trauma and the fears associated with it and BOOM. I started crying and next thing I knew I was hyperventilating

 

[BoN-bOn]

I guess for me it just took time. I was so used to avoiding feeling ANYTHING that I just couldn’t. Yoga has helped me connect with myself in ways that I never would have imagined. That’s when the tears started to fall I guess. When I started learning how to notice & feel things & have compassion for myself, some of that blame & shame started to fall away. I still have a long way to go, but involving my body in the healing process has been a huge help for me.

 

[Emotional girl]

I never used to cry with other therapists but something has changed with my current one and I have cried quite a bit in our sessions.
I feel safe and secure with him and I do feel I can show him my vulnerabilities but it took me quite a while to get there.