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Yes @joeylittle, a ton. There are many things he could stop doing that I'd feel good about. I'd even feel ok with him looking to move my hometown if he did some of the simplest things. For one, believe me and for two stop minimizing everythibg from trauma to symptoms, and 3 stop making every single thing my fault. Just to start.

And stop making me doubt every single day that he actually gives a f*ck.

There are MANY things. Learn how to actually support someone. Read the f*cking PTSD sourcebook would be a great start to that. When I get the courage to open up to you about where my head is don't laugh and quote statistics about most that think of suicide won't go through with it and then tell me that getting hit by a train is "too messy" thus selfish and a threat for attention, which it wasn't.

Hell, there is a f*ck load he can do to make me a bit more content. Even if he wasnt the model supporter.
 
Just a couple of thoughts for you regarding "re-employment" in Florida. Do apply and do appeal. Also, there are resource centers called Career Source Central Florida. There are 2 websites, one for Career Source and the other is for Employ Florida. The latter is the one you will be working through. Hmm, let me Google a number - Ah, better yet.... go to the careersourcecentralflorida.com website and click on the "contact-us" button. I'm not sure which location is closet to you, so you can just give them a call. Even if your claim is denied, you can still get help from these folks. Mine was denied a long while ago and I've just started going.

They offer a boatload of services for the unemployed, including helping you access social services, helping with filing unemployment, entering your jobs and serving as a "job" if you can't find 5 to put on your report each week (you just go into the office on that day and work on your resume or something). There is also training, career counseling, resume and interview help.... Just tons of stuff. Their goal is to get you stabilized and back to work so anything they can do, they will do to help you.

You can create an ID at the Employ Florida website and look around, especially under the "How can help you" tab. I believe the State requires you to create a login when filing for unemployment, so check it out. After looking around the website, I'd call them explaining that you need to talk to a counselor about x, y, z and see how they can help you. Or, you can even go in with questions about the unemployment process and then maybe talk to one of the folks while you're there about what you need help with.

Hang in there; you've had a rough year. As others have noted, be kind to yourself and know that we're all out here rooting for you! :tup:
 
I believe the State requires you to create a login when filing for unemployment, so check it out.

Yeah, they have the login from 2011 - 2012 and I had to call to get my resident address dropped as it wouldnt let me change it. I filed and as it says in the copy and paste, it was successful but then said I had to do something on this other site I had never been to and I tried to create a log in there and it failed. It makes me fill out this contact me thing. But the thing I copied and pasted said it was successful so I don't know.

Yeah, the "re employment" site has all sorts of sources on it.

I didn't realize you could go in and work on a resume instead of filling out the 5 jobs a week. I always just filled on jobs from the paper that looked like one I would have "applied" for but I am not wanting to drag it out like I was back then. I just want something until employed but to be employed ASAP.

I haven't gotten the Cobra paperwork and its been a week. So not sure what to do there. In the seperation paperwork Cobra has no contact. It says they mail you paperwork to fill out and send back with payment and that its 102% of the full amount of insurence. Not sure why 2% more.

My therapist says the sleeping/crash and not wanting to fill out applications is situational depression and that, knowing me as well as he does, that will start to get better over time. To be patient with myself and do as much as I can. He also made a point to tell me that the training I have done with Chopper has stuck and that him not leaving my side and not wanting attention from anyone else shows that. Chopper has never been more in tuned with me before. Its been me and Chopper curled up together on the couch for a week. But he was trying to assure me that I can work full time, study and go for my certifications, and still train Chopper. It will take longer but still doable.

I'm glad I had the therapist's today. Sort of a pick-me-up a bit.

I'm having my cat put to sleep tomorrow afternoon cause I don't have the hundreds upon hundreds of dollars to get him diagnosed and then hundreds more to get him fixed. I just dont. And its put him to sleep or have him pass away here while suffering. So dealing with that too.

Got a lot on me right now. Just all sucks!

Hang in there; you've had a rough year. As others have noted, be kind to yourself and know that we're all out here rooting for you! :tup:

Thank you! :hug:
 
I know yours does as well @She Cat! Thank you! :hug:

Did some hard training with Chopper. Haven't taken him back out in public yet as just those trainings have my legs swolen and pounding but I haven't crashed today and feel I acomplished something!

No Cobra mail yet. Its been a week and I am becoming worried. Who would I call? The insurence company or the company that fired me HR?
 
@lostforgottensoul - So sorry about your cat. I'm glad your T was helpful though as this is situational depression. I'm going through it now again as I can't seem to find anything and just want to give up. There are so many call centers hiring now though. I hope you find something soon. There are a ton on my end of town, not sure about the pay though. Career Source should be able to help you out with this. I saw some job fairs for just this sort of job last week when I stopped in to scan my transcripts for a job. My field is dry as the desert and there's a lot of us looking as well. Much competition.

Regarding login ID's and such, go to the Career Source center and ask them to tell you about their programs, how unemployment works, and to help you with logins. Anything related to unemployment and then getting your re-employed is their area of expertise. Along with case management for social services and career counseling. They might even be able to give you advice on COBRA as most folks who lose their jobs will be dealing with this issue.

Have you called UHC to see if you are active with them? If you are, then use that card. It seems to me that I used the same card for COBRA, but then again maybe the group number changed. If it were to have changed, HR should've given you a temporary card until UHC could mail you a new card. Those are easily printed out by the benefits administrator in HR. A call to your old HR department might be helpful at this point to let them know you haven't received your COBRA paperwork and that you need a temporary card if the group number changed. There is to be no lapse in coverage between what you had as an employee and have as a COBRA participant through UHC. That's the law. It's probably a mail issue, but you should've been given a temporary ID card before you left so that you wouldn't have to worry about this matter. Payment for COBRA has a grace period so I hope you aren't sweating that. I think it's a month. Also, the upcharge you are referring to is an administrative fee.

Take care and hang in there. Do use the resources available to you through the State. They seem to be most caring and helpful.
 
Yes @joeylittle, a ton. There are many things he could stop doing that I'd feel good about. I'd even feel ok with him looking to move my hometown if he did some of the simplest things. For one, believe me and for two stop minimizing everythibg from trauma to symptoms, and 3 stop making every single thing my fault. Just to start.

And stop making me doubt every single day that he actually gives a f*ck.

My father lives 400 some odd miles from me. He never visits me here. Or really his granddaughter. He doesn't call us. My step mother sends out the obligatory birthday/holiday cards. He's my only only biological parent because my mother died when I was younger. My father thinks my PTSD is a joke. He criticizes everything I do and brings up stupid things that happened years ago. Like for example, the last time I saw him, he was talking about how I skipped school in high school and how my sister was never like that. That was over 20 years ago. My sister also lives off him, he bought her a house, he pays her bills, etc, and she keeps having children. She's obese with diabetes, and doesn't take care of herself, yet will make comments if I gain maybe 5 lbs (I'm 115lbs usually, 5'6" - plus I'm kind of a health nut).

When I left home at 17, that was it. My father, nor mother, did not give me ANY money or support. I was homeless staying at friends' houses for a year until I was able to get on my own feet. I will never expect a thing from him, or ask him for help now, and it has made our relationship pretty mellow now. I can talk to him without getting upset, and it's turned into an "it is what it is" situation. It has removed any expectations of him. He also knows that I will not bail him out when he mismanages his money. He asked me for $10,000 when I was buying my house, and of course I said "nope" and now I deal with his weird comments about how I bought such a big house. It's none of his business, and it does not bother me anymore.

Basically, you have to live your own life and stop worrying about what your father thinks or what your step mother says. You're an adult. You are capable, You can make it on your own. PTSD may be a challenge but it's not a road block.
 
There are so many call centers hiring now though

Almost all sales. They pay mostly comission or all comission. Being able to pay or not being able to pay my rent cannot be determined by making sales. It is MAJORLY stressful! WAY more then people screaming at me all day! My last sales job was Hilton Grand Vacations, which was in Orlando, I stayed a month. I couldn't do it. My anxiety today, which is a ton more, would likely cause me to go postal or something.

Incoming only Tech support or customer service (no sales, no comission, actual customer service) jobs are very few here. Think of companies. Spectrum. They have 2. Apple Care is a work at home. Sprint is out, was my last unemployment. Utility companies are also usually out.

job fairs

Went to 3 in 2011 and every single one of them were sales call centers or sales in general. Will go to others but most are a waste of time in my experience.

There are so many call centers hiring now

Call centers are always hiring! It's the biggest thing with this type of work. Super high churn!

Regarding login ID's and such, go to the Career Source center and ask them to tell you about their programs, how unemployment works, and to help you with logins. Anything related to unemployment and then getting your re-employed is their area of expertise. Along with case management for social services and career counseling. They might even be able to give you advice on COBRA as most folks who lose their jobs will be dealing with this issue.

They give you a week from when you lost your job to file. I got the sucessful message and I thought an email but I just looked and never got one so if I cant file until, the week was up yestetday so it would be too late anyway.

Have you called UHC to see if you are active with them?

No cause the seperation papers state that my insurence/group plan ends the last day of the month of seperation. So the last day of April. My therapist only charged me a copay but its cause they send it through and it then comes back as unapproved but that takes a bit. Cobra is retroactive but I have to have the money to pay out to Drs first. Its why i didnt show up at the sleep specicalist as its a Neurologist and they want money, full money, before seeing the Dr. Been there done that. Specialists usually do.

If you are, then use that card. It seems to me that I used the same card for COBRA, but then again maybe the group number changed.

No, its the exact same plan but you are paying full price +2%. So it is the exact same card (or how every other Cobra worked) but at the moment its useless as I am not covered at the moment.

There is to be no lapse in coverage between what you had as an employee and have as a COBRA participant through UHC. That's the law.

No, there is. It is "covered" because Cobra is retroactive however you must have full payment for Drs until then. Any of the ones that dont put it through to allow it to bounce back later anyway. And if later is before Cobra starts then you owe that. Cobra pays you back but in the moment you have to pay it.

Cobra also does not start until so many days from when they get their first payment. So there is a lapse there. Whether it be from when you pay them or the wait between payment & start. There is a lapse there either way.

Payment for COBRA has a grace period so I hope you aren't sweating that. I think it's a month.

40 days. I believe without looking. And no sweat, I have the payment. I just need the darn forms.

Take care and hang in there. Do use the resources available to you through the State. They seem to be most caring and helpful.

Will do! Thanks for all the info!

Like for example, the last time I saw him, he was talking about how I skipped school in high school and how my sister was never like that.

Sibling compare. My dad does that A LOT! My brother (the only son of 6) is the golden child.

Basically, you have to live your own life and stop worrying about what your father thinks or what your step mother says. You're an adult. You are capable, You can make it on your own. PTSD may be a challenge but it's not a road block

Its not the PTSD, though a road block, not a big enough one to block me. Comparmentalizing usually works for that. It is the chronic pain and back living in a super low wage and super high price of living state where, in the industry that I have worked all my life, the higher in wage is normally $10 an hour and just my rent for an 850 sq ft apartment is $876 a month. Do the math. And I am no longer able to work 2 jobs let alone 3 jobs like I used to. My therapist is here. A sticky subject as I was forced into therapy, took me a year to even tell him why I was there, 2 more years to get the the past out of me, 8 years total and I am not starting over with a new therapist. If I loose my therapist I know me. I won't get another. It is the only reason I am still in this area. My dad came up to KS to get me as I was going to be homeless after my accident in '09. Thus started my depending on daddy for help. I have no issue cutting that cord but I do have issue making it here on my own. Thus my therapist's talk of certifications so that I can be more independant inside of an industry I adore (and know a great deal but have nothing to back what I know), IT. Until then I will find a way. But that is the only reason my dad still lives here. I need his rent money. Sad and probably cold but true nonetheless.
 
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The area that I live at has mostly luxury apartments starting at $2,000/mo for a small one bedroom, if you are lucky. I'm in Virginia close to DC now. It ended up being cheaper to own a house than it is to rent an apartment. I used to live in NY too, where the rent was astronomical compared to what I was making and that's when I was raising my daughter alone. I found ways to make it work. If you work in IT, you can still do contract work online in your free time. There are plenty of databases out there with contracts to bid on.

I also live with chronic pain, and have my entire life. I was born with a congenial heart defect that causes me to get tired easily and sometimes causes chest pain, I have really bad arthritis where my hands are slightly deformed and it hurts a lot, and I suffer from an autoimmune food related disease that really has no effective treatment.

Believe me, I get how tough it is.
 
Whew! Just gave my cat his last meal, said goodbye and he is now on his way to be put down. :(

I used to live in NY too, where the rent was astronomical compared to what I was making and that's when I was raising my daughter alone.

Kansas was at least a bit more equal. Was being paid $15 an hour for the same thing and my 1000 sq ft apartment in Johnson county (safest most expensive county) was $550 a month and never went up. My current appartment goes up ever yr.

I can't handle the cold anymore due to the pain. The hummidity is at least better in pain.

Its so hard in Fl cause the wages dont equate the price of living. Paying for "paradise" we say.

Yes, I could move to another area but each time I think of it I think of my therapist. I just cant start over.

I will move more towards the lesser populated more run down area here local.

Houses arent cheaper to rent or I would rent a house. It used to be that high to rent houses but someone in my apartment complex office said they go up on rent cause they can. Way less people in houses and way more people in apartments.

I found ways to make it work.

Im sure I will. Problem is I know me. I know that if I have to work 2 jobs I will. Or massive amounts of overtime. Issue is my body cannot handle it (and my service dog in training needs training) and my body will soon break down. But I will make it either way.
 
Did a little double-checking for you on the COBRA stuff at the DOL. Per the website, you have 45 days to make your first payment and then a 30 day grace period each month thereafter to make regular payments. So, we were both in the neighborhood at least. lol It's so confusing and I was a benefits administrator! The ACA certainly threw a monkey wrench into what was already a messy process.

Also, I tried to find out some info on the lapse in coverage, but was unsuccessful. Sorry you are having trouble in this regard. My transitions from group to COBRA were seamless. I didn't experience any difficulties regarding claims and I was going to the MD and T every week. Glad at least your therapist is working with you in this regard. For me, maybe this is the one thing Blue Cross has ever done right! Or, maybe it was the employer who took action to avoid claim issues and notified the carrier of the change early on. Also, when I was a benefits administrator, I went into the system at BC and updated the status change before employees left if they wanted to elect COBRA so that they wouldn't have any problems either. Seems like a lot of variables, huh?! Hoping it all works out sooner rather than later and that you can get to the docs you need to see.

I put on my thinking cap about call centers out here. I also thought of Spectrum as they have a huge center in Maitland, but also have a few to throw out to you that I know of. I'm not sure if they're tech, but ADP interviewed me through CareerSource and I have no background in that area or in call center support. They have a very large call center in Maitland. So, well, maybe take customer services skills and go another way than tech?? Call centers that I know of: ADP, Fiserv, Convergys (have heard awful things about them though!!), AAA, AT&T, Chase, Sears Holdings, Veritas (not sure about call center, but are tech), Symantec, Paychex. This is where I'd turn to the resource center and see who they've got special relationships with and more options they could offer up.

Also, when looking at their job list, if you see a gold star next to a job and are interested, get your resume to one of their people and they'll forward it with a recommendation to the employer. Also, when you see "Suppressed" next to a job, that's not the name of an agency (I used to think that and thought "Wow, how depressing to call your agency suppressed."), it means that the job in an internal posting that only those participating in the program can apply for.

That's all I've got for you sweetie. If I hear of anything, I'll send it along. Wishing you the best and crossing my fingers that things will get better and more stabilized for you. Take care.
 
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