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ha ha i am glad myYep.
Because failing that? I end up with the world stopping South of Texas & East of Italy. Seriously. My mental map just completely erased Latin America & Eastern Europe. As well as smaller regions like countries, states/provinces, & whole cities.
At the time I figured ‘It’s a big f*cking world. I have neither need nor desire to ever go there again, so WTFO. Finis. Done.’
10 years later? That changed. I did need, not want but need, to go... and I couldn’t. Procrastinated so long on doing so, tried every other 2nd or 42nd best option first... that I lost the opportunity.
In the interim I’d un-avoided other regions... reclaimed cities, states, countries.. HUGELY to my benefit. So I’d actually been planning on doing ‘fun’ (desensitizing / real-making) visits to those places, too. But I ran out of time. And when the moment came to leap -I had outs/escapes in 2 different places- I was too much of a f*cking pansy to do it. Which makes everything that followed? My fault. I could have saved us, and I didn’t. Because I was too much of a whiny scared f*cking baby to just push through.
So the places I have reclaimed? f*cking awesome.
The places I chose not to? I profoundly regret.
i gues it has to be done for the right reasonsI have had to go to places where my trauma occurred and I have hated it. I have been scared, unhappy, nervous and honestly just wanted to leave constantly. I was so relieved when I could go. I was so relieved I didn't see anyone that would trigger me.
I don't really think there is a lot to be gained from revisiting places where trauma happened for me. It isn't like a phobia situation. But that's just me.
wow thats a big trauma map lol. I understand what you meant about needing to go to some places..many places from my city of birth was popping up in my dreams the pull was mystical in nature. So this year I have have been travelling there...fortunatly just a train ride down the road not costa rica ;-). Systematically been visiting these places. Did some writing when I was there. Had just got back last night from my most recent trip and was feeling like i had been hit by a train so it brought on all these doubts wondering if i was just stressing my self out with all this. But it opened me up a lot emotionally and that can be exhausting at first. I beleive now it was the natural thing for me to do. I feel like i have created a new landscape back there now which is not so fear based any more..I think the needing to go to those places was a way of trying to work out what had happened to me there which i was confused about and was avoiding.Yep.
Because failing that? I end up with the world stopping South of Texas & East of Italy. Seriously. My mental map just completely erased Latin America & Eastern Europe. As well as smaller regions like countries, states/provinces, & whole cities.
At the time I figured ‘It’s a big f*cking world. I have neither need nor desire to ever go there again, so WTFO. Finis. Done.’
10 years later? That changed. I did need, not want but need, to go... and I couldn’t. Procrastinated so long on doing so, tried every other 2nd or 42nd best option first... that I lost the opportunity.
In the interim I’d un-avoided other regions... reclaimed cities, states, countries.. HUGELY to my benefit. So I’d actually been planning on doing ‘fun’ (desensitizing / real-making) visits to those places, too. But I ran out of time. And when the moment came to leap -I had outs/escapes in 2 different places- I was too much of a f*cking pansy to do it. Which makes everything that followed? My fault. I could have saved us, and I didn’t. Because I was too much of a whiny scared f*cking baby to just push through.
So the places I have reclaimed? f*cking awesome.
The places I chose not to? I profoundly regret.
yes you have to approach it carefully ..i had to go to some places more than once and get a little closer each time...and i planned to have cut off points and plan something nice to go and do afterwardsOnly when I am feeling strong enough. And always with the mindful intention to go only so far as it feels like I am not pushing myself back into the trauma. Even if that means sitting outside in my car.
Thank you for starting this thread. I have often wondered if anyone else did this, or had tried it for that matter. Any one that has heard that I have gone back has told me that I shouldn't. So, I only go when I'm alone.Has anyone found any value in going to places were they was traumatised to experience memorys/ emotions e.t.c... I have been giving it a go have been getting some insights....still not sure if its just upesetting my self though.