What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

[Lionheart]

I am thinking about how some Christians hate me because I am bi-sexual. I wonder how I can continue to serve a God that hates me. I am not at peace with my sexuality.....yet and I want a loving God to accept me just as I am.

 

[JustMeAndMyMind]

I am thinking about how some Christians hate me because I am bi-sexual. I wonder how I can continue to serve a God that hates me. I am not at peace with my sexuality.....yet and I want a loving God to accept me just as I am.

Oh lionheart, this breaks my heart. Right, first things first, for those who hate you, dislike you or even judge silently just because of your sexuality, well I say that's their issue, not yours. I very much appreciate the difficulties of lgbtqa+ within religion, but I promise you, there are far more who will accept you as you are than there are those that won't. Remember, their issues are theirs alone, not yours.
No god I love would turn their back on someone simply because of who they love.
I'm going to tell a tiny bit of my story and this is super scary for me to say here, but I'm trying to be brave, so bare with me. When my daughter died a chaplain came to see us in the hospital to offer support. Before he even came in the room I stopped him and blurted out what was his stance was on the LGBTQA+ community because I won't have that hate around my daughter! (bare in mind I was in severe shock, sleep deprived and on heavy pain meds). By all accounts I looked and sounded very firm with him about it .
I do remember him looking at me very shocked, and almost sad when he said "no I accept everyone regardless of their identity or orientation. God loves us all, even if they or others don't believe he does".

I let him in .

Whatever you're sexuality, I whole heartedly believe with every inch of my being that God loves you just the way you are. Xxx

 

[notsurewheretoturn]

The very large spider I saw in the hallway earlier, that I now can't find. (The spider, not the hallway, lol)

 

[Lionheart]

Oh lionheart, this breaks my heart.

Awwww you are so kind and compassionate.

Whatever you're sexuality, I whole heartedly believe with every inch of my being that God loves you just the way you are. Xxx

I want to believe this too. I am gonna try.

Thank you for sharing!!!
Lionheart

 

[Lionheart]

The very large spider I saw in the hallway earlier, that I now can't find. (The spider, not the hallway, lol)

I just bought a bottle of Peppermint supreme essential oil because it works as a barrier on spiders. They say that spiders hate it so I am going for prevention as I am allergic to certain types of spider bites.

 

[Tinyflame]

Covid. Covid. Covid. Covid. Covid..

 

[Survivor3]

I'm hungry, I didn't eat yesterday and would like to go to the cafe for breakfast but I'm so lazy I don't want to have to change my clothes and deal with people. Huh, sigh.

 

[Dynamic]

Food is so good. Thankful I have appetite. Haven't done a thankful list in a while.

Food
Rain
Kids
Drs/medicine

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Trying to give myself permission to pursue side hustle some hours weekly, that is riskier, because it doesn't immediately bring income. (blogging/etsy/youtube) But it could be a source of energy because I will like doing it.
Trying not to talk myself out of it by thinking I'm untalented or having nothing useful to say.

 

[SeekingAfrica]

Yay for small victories after feeling like giving up for few weeks... maybe a month.

 

[Tinyflame]

I was thinking about how people always give me things to get the knots out of (or lids to get off, or slivers to get out, but that's a whole other thing..), and how when I feel frustrated when I can't untangle it the first thing I have to do is stop, and then be very gentle, (and patient), and the knots come out.

 

[Tinyflame]

l really feel pretty overwhelmed because I had to look for paperwork from 1998, which I found all but one copy I needed and I feel it likely was not forwarded to me. But it included stuff from 1993/94, 1999, 2000, 2007-2008. To find it I had to wade through other stuff: hospital records from one, funeral stuff from another, and much much much more, through 2 decades. In retrospect not sure how I/ we survived it. And the old papers smell like smoke, which I hate. I feel like I want a psychological shower more than a physical one, though the day itself was better than the rocky start it began with.

Just recently I've been kind of 1/2 physically and 95+% emotionally devastated, I mean you push through because there's no choice. And had to chew aspirins a few times.

But.. I'm not sure.. read a sign that said 'as long as there is life there is hope'. All I can say of hope is that to me it is a degree of peacefulness in the present. I mean, I think life is meant to have joy, laughter, love, peace. But there is only the moment to either make the best of, or survive. It's also hard to start +/or end the day with anger, or chaos and fear. Otherwise it gets very dark, not easy to ride that through at the moment or longer term. I hope it improves and I hope I can improve my own thoughts/ heart. I mean, to a great degree it's up to me what I focus on, or how I interpret what comes to me unwanted. That's all I can think of to do.