wisteria
Confident
So, I think I'm 2 months into my new therapist. Trust is a big struggle for me but I like him overall. But there is always a BUT. It dawned on me today (after our session) that I still fear him rejecting me (I also have issues with rejection). It doesn't help that we don't have a consistent schedule. At one point we had a month of appointments scheduled, but now we are down to 2 future appointments scheduled. Part of me apparently fears that he will drop me at any moment, I think. I don't think that is doing much for the trust. I'm really tempted to email him my concerns rather than waiting until our next appointment, but we never addressed contact between appointments. Obviously I could wait, but it's hard to trust someone who you don't think is going to stick around. Honestly, I'm kinda surprised he hasn't picked up on this issue sooner, but hey, I am a guarded so I'll let it slide. He did ask today if there was anything he could do to make me less anxious about therapy? Should I wait? Should I email him? I just don't know. I don't want to break any boundaries but it does seem relevant, rather than me worrying that he'll drop me.