I am So Damn Pissed Off Right Now - Venting

[captrn1]

Pandora,

reality sucks. Just know that there are some of us nurses out here that still go several extra miles to take care of our patient and will stand up to any doctor.

take care of yourself and deal with it a little bit.....1 hour....1/2 day....at a time.

my thoughts are with you.

 

[pandora]

Thank you Captain one......

take care.

 

[pandora]

I mean captrn1.

 

[pandora]

I think my anger is really coming out when she is not doing the job she is performing to the best of her ability....I know........ I would have found one somewhere, for any of my patients.....today feels like i just need to take it slow...I can't hold a thought enough to move forward right now. i just need to recoup from the last couple of months and just move forward.

I am...I am going to......my brother and sister in law work alot, full time no kids, just two dogs) during the week....I now have a pool, sauna and hot tub to use..i prefer when they are working but now I can go whenvever. It was hard to see my brother today....three years...that is a long time. I realiy missed him and he was nice to me today....my Mom tried but I could still feel the anger and dissapointment and that ......well I wanted to leave but I thought.......breathe, you can do this...I did it.....

My son and i spent some time in the hot tub...by the time a came back in ( half hour total) my Mom was gone. My sister in law was very nice......we have NEVER had negative words......I stayed away because of my brothers mouth, not her. i think I might need to either write this out.....maybe have all you guys give an opinion......last time I wrote a heart felt note and sent it....I pissed off....a lot of people....sooooo, totally not my intentions...sorry, rabling.

Anyone have any advice.......i stopped talking to my sister in law ( she really is a nice person...I feel she is abused to a certain degree too) from my brother....they have been together 15 years, we all lived together, a couple of times. Wnen I stopped talking to my brother...it just came along with it because I didn't want to cause waves in their relationship. She is acting like nothing ever happened but I feel a sick feeling......Should I write something to her?

 

[Grama-Herc]

Get a card, print out the above letter and smile. I believe you sister in law would benefit from reading what you wrote about her and seeing how you feel, uncensored!
Everybody needs an ally--sounds like she is yours.

Invite her back into your life and enjoy her as a friend. She obviously has character
since she still acts to you as before regardless of your brother. Let her worry about that, you enjoy her friendship

There, I will now get down off my soap box

 

[pandora]

Thanx Gramma Herc.....

 

[baileysemt]

2quilt, what a great idea, picking that stuff up at estate sales. Of course! ... brilliant idea!!

pandora, I hope you have at least taken this commode chair down a notch or two by giving it a funny name... 'pooper chair' comes to mind (in light of how my best friend's kids always thought 'pooper' was the funniest word ever created -- ever!! -- imagine 3, 4 and 5 year olds giggling *hysterically* at the thought of the word, LOL) ... but I am sure you can think up something much more creative. :smile:

I think you are lucky to be able to have such tools to help you deal with your injury. Screw that nurse -- she doesn't know what she's talking about!

And I think you are incredibly strong to live with the pain and limitations it presents every day. I don't think I am anywhere near as strong as you are.

And I think you are incredibly strong for being able to share your feelings with us. There are a lot of people who can't even look themselves in the mirror, let alone own up to their honest feelings.

Keep your chin up :thumbs-up and I hope you will get a laugh out of my suggestion for the creative name for the chair, I am only trying to give you something to smile about. :)

Bailey

 

[pandora]

Thanx Bailey!!!!

 

[Beli Mawr]

Does everyone ever get the feeling, I did until recently, that the minute you need or want something or get anxious, everyone automatically decides not to give it to you? After my benzos, I feel much better, and people have been really friendly all of a sudden. Do you think people read too much in, and give you trouble? I mean, if you are afraid and upset, why should that matter when you ask for something you have a verifiable medical need for?

They should pass out pamphlets in waiting rooms to let you know the mental and emotional states you need to be in when you request something when you really do need it. People who are essentially emotionally retarded are helpless otherwise. I didn't understand there were different levels of communication I was missing until I got the meds first. now I do.