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She would not do that. She tried insurance in the beg of her career and felt frustrated.Is your T in practice by herself? If she has some control over the situation, she might be able to get...
She said that insurance reps would tell her directly to encourage her patients to go on meds (with a psychiatrist or md) as ultimately that was cheaper than patients just staying in talk therapy.
So as a PsyD, she felt insurance did not support her and what she felt she needed to do for each patient.
I have already been with her for 2.5 yrs and will likely continue for a long time. If I was in network maybe that would be more difficult to stay long term.
She is a great T, but not perfect. Sometimes there is that "ho hum session" where she is not as engaged. That feels frustrating because Im paying for each session.
Sometimes I thwart the session because of ADHD and I get distracted easily or because I will be disassociated the whole session.
Sometimes, the psychodynamic thing gets to me. I get that its a great process for healing and I feel lucky that I have T who can do it, but THAT is the most exhausting part because I project so much into her all of my child hood rejection I put on her. So, I go before her aching with pain and the need to be seen and then she just is a therapist that I pay.
I pay her to love me.
I constantly think she hates me (she doesn't) but its a projection.
We took a year just talking about our relationship and how it connects to my mother.
I think I would enjoy spending the money if it weren't for all of the projections/psychodynamic bull shit that clouds my mind.
I have an anxious/avoidance attachment issue that I am trying to work out. So, I constantly want to leave her.