What Are You Looking Forward To?

[maddog]

I have a difficult relationship with the act of looking forward. Often I feel unable to really "feel" the positive anticipation that my brain tells me ought to be there when thinking about upcoming events that will probably give me some respite or positive distraction. I try to make myself focus on looking forward to things in whatever way I can, even if it doesn't feel good, because I keep hoping that in this way I will somehow learn to experience the positive anticipation that my brain alerts me should be there. I hope that doesn't sound too maddeningly analytical or sterile, though if it does, that's probably appropriate, as that's often how I feel.

So for now, I'm looking forward to going rowing on Sunday. I usually look back afterwards and realise that I did enjoy at least some of it, and am sad and let down when it's finished.

I'm looking forward to my T coming back from holidays. In fact I'm almost unable to look forward to it consciously because it brings such immense emotion.

Each day I look forward to spending time in the sun, in the fresh air and in nature. Truly, I do. I look forward to witnessing the sunrise each day, because it is one of the most predictable and reliable beauties in the world, and nothing can take it away from me.

Maddog

 

[JustBe]

I look forward to the earthy smells of spring in the woods.

 

[intothelight]

Looking forward to going through the days with a sense of peace and a lot less anxiety. Learning to manage my own stress.

 

[Upside Down Eagle]

I look forward to getting up in the morning and seeing the world through my own eyes. A day in which I can relax and feel like I am finally just me. Just me, without anybody else in my head messing the place up. Just me, enjoying every small minute of it, no matter how mundane and insignificant, and be grateful for it. :)

 

[stuff]

I make plans constantly. It helps me to have a trajectory with the clause that I can change it if I'm feeling overwhelmed. I keep lots of projects on the go because the darkness really only seeps in when I stop and have a lot of time with my own head.
I worry a bit about workaholism, but I feel like I accomplish a lot and that makes me feel better about the ptsd stuff.

 

[stuff]

Currently looking forward to my next Kung fu lesson, cooking dinner for friends and making a music video.

 

[novemberDark]

Looking forward to something that might not even work out. The positive people I got cooperation from today, allow me to feel this way.

I know its a long road but I can still trust again.

On this thread someone talked about the sun rise. I watched her this morning with more attention. It was a good feeling. It was a good start of today.

I am not damaged, I am just reacting naturally to what's happened before and living with how to go from there.

 

[Changing4Best]

I never thought of the sun as a her! I don't think I ever thought of it as a him either though. I know that the sun is a close by star though! I know it gives us light and heat, two of my favorite things, especially in winter when these things lessen! Sunsets are nice too. When I lived near the ocean and it was on our west side, I used to go often to watch the sunsets on the beach. I would look forward to that experience again, were I ever to visit there! I look farward to so many of the things mentioned above. I shall stay connected to and follow this thread for sure. It is a cheerer-upper!

 

[novemberDark]

....I didn't mean to to make a distinction ( freudian slip)..one of my languages is masculine /feminine based,I'm sure it influences me.

I love reading this thread, hear about things I don't know about.

I'm following this thread too, no idea about kong fu.

But love to cook for friends, was spoiled this year got cooked for, by men! I am very happy with my friends, care taking understood. So lucky, so spoiled

It is so nice to hear how someone else experiences the sunrise, and today for me it made a big difference. Reminded me why to rise and shine with the light again.

 

[Britt.f7]

I'm looking forward to my cold and cough being gone. I think it is on it's way out. Compared to yesterday, I feel much better. Of course, yesterday I was doing a lot of running around. Today won't be as bad.

 

[Hashi]

Wish you better, @Britt.f7

I'm looking forward to watching Sherlock on iPlayer tonight.

If the dry weather holds, I'm looking forward to tidying up the garden tomorrow.

 

[novemberDark]

Looking forward to my friend coming by and making him a coffee.

Looking forward to the girls meet up on Fri and hearing about whats been going on with them.

Was looking forward to skating but right now the temp is stealing the ice. That's just for now though.

Looking forward to walking outside and feel the warmer temp on my skin eventhough its taking from skating.